How much did your childhood fuck you up?

Let’s pretend, that’s always fun. I have a appendectomy scar that’s about 3.5 inches, this was before they had laparoscopic surgery so it’s quite noticeable. I used to tell people that I was stabbed by “some crazy bitch I used to date.” I could keep the straightest face; like I almost believed myself.

So what’s the point of this?

Pretending is the point. I’ve always said that I don’t care about what others think of me that I know who and what I am. Other people have no effect on my thought process. That’s a lie though. We’re all products of our environment and each thought and choice has a direct effect on the next and so on and so forth.

I was talking to my friend of almost 20 years last night and we were reminiscing about the past and memories that stuck with us from childhood and how each one of those situations influenced how we saw and reacted to the next and ultimately how the cumulation of life events leads to your current thought process and life view.

When I was about 14 I started smoking pot pretty much daily which caused massive issues at home as my parents were completely brainwashed by drug war propaganda. So all the fights, contacts with police, being locked out of the house numerous times and issues at school formed how I view these institutions today. But it could have been completely different. How? What if my parents were like “okay, obviously i’d prefer you not smoking pot at 14 but as long as you do all the shit your supposed to do fine, I’ll deal with it.” I’d probably have a totally different life view than one shaped by being thrown into a residential rehab for  6 months after smoking pot 3 or 4 times. That shit fucked me up.

So I don’t know, this post was going to be “Let’s pretend you’re rich” with a stupid poll with stupid answers but clearly it’s become something else.

Maybe this then:

I kept trying to add “Fuck you John” as an option but it just won’t show up in the poll, i guess you could always just type it yourself.


*UPDATE* “Fuck you john” seems to be the clear winner


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